Thursday, April 21, 2011

Counting the Days

He'd be nine years old, today.   I can count fully on one hand, the birthday parties he never had.  2, 6, 7, 8 and 9.  Of all these, this is the third birthday he has physically not been present for.  How is it that I've gotten used to that?  The other two, he was too sick to party on. 

I wonder how this counting translates in Heaven where they live outside of time. In Hebrews 3, Paul reminds us to exhort each other to walk with God away from sin "while the day is still called "Today." This suggests that there will be a day or a place where today is no longer referred to as today and time is no longer relevant.   Does one age where there is no time?  Is he 9 or still 6 there?  I went to bed with that question on my mind and woke up with it unanswered.  The hardest part in all this is still the waking up without him here.  Especially today. 

Happy Birthday, Samuel.  How many more days will I count until I see you again? How many more years? How many more tears?

Mama loves you........

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Mark, Jen, and family:

Saying prayers for you all today for the Lord's peace. I know you miss your son. Happy birthday Samuel.

"Behold I come quickly"...

From Mark & Family in Smyrna, GA.

lost--for--words said...

I've often wondered about the age thing too....

Keeping you and Samuel close to my heart, especially today. I wish that things were different and he were here celebrating his birthday on earth. I know that he can feel your love for him though - No amount of distance can ever come between mother and child.

Tons of love to Samuel, you, and your family XOXO

Colleen Gracey said...

A lot of mamas love you, Samuel! Happy birthday! Can't wait to meet you in heaven.